|Kent, Marissa, Brandon, and I|
San Diego on the water taxi
Every year as it's slowly winding down, I can't help but think about what the year has brought. I am always amazed at how quickly time goes by--and this year is definitely no different. 2012. Wow. I remember being just a kid and thinking to myself, "God, in the year 2000 I'll turn 30 years old!" And it seemed so long off, so far into the future that I couldn't imagine it.
|Bran & Roo Xmas '98|
And here we are, with 2012 only hours away. Where has the time gone?
This year we've accumulated a lot of fond memories--here's a quick list of what immediately comes to mind (in no particular order):
|B holding up his temporary|
Marissa driving my car for the first time--will never forget the bushes she ran over... She actually did very well coming down the road and parked the car on the curb with extreme accuracy. It wasn't until her brother got her all worked up, that the bush went kaput...
Melissa, Gloria, Me & Laszlo
|Me very excited about the PACK!|
Seeing my team, the great GREEN BAY PACKERS, become SUPER BOWL CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD!
Marissa going to Nationals in Florida with her cheerleading team
Fuzz playing for CT soccer in what may have been his last season
|Brandon and one of the cars|
|All of us with Evon!|
Reuniting with my friend, Tina--we had lost contact for years. I've known her for 20 years.
Realizing my nieces were exactly like my brother--which is not a compliment by any means. Knowing I would never be used by another person the way my brother used me. It was eye-opening and door-closing at the same time.
|Me and the|
|Julia, Me & Tina at the|
Taking the motorcycle out with my hubby--not nearly as often as we liked, but grateful for the times we did. I love riding the bike--it makes me feel so free! Love it!
|Kent & I at|
|Me and some of the ladies from work|
at the Clock Tower
|Kent & I at the Rapids game|
|Marissa serving one of the seniors|
|Mama and Fuzz|
Going to the Denver Zoo on Mother's day--they both hate going to the zoo. This is because back in the day when I was broke and they were little, I would buy a season pass to the zoo. Every single weekend we spent at the zoo. Now, they're over it... But I'm not! It's my must-do every single Mother's Day--love this place. Reminds me of when my babies were just that, babies.
Massages at the Massage School with the girls--yeah. That was an experience I'd care not to repeat...but for $12.50, you can't beat it! =)
|Joelle, Me and Melanie|
|Mel, Me & Joelle in Bethel|
Getting and iPhone 4, 3G network, touch screen--my kids always laugh when I say that, so I had to include it! =)
|Kent & me at the dunes|
|Kent & I at the Gator Farm|
|Fuzz and Roo at Mission Bay|
|Marissa & I on the boat in Cali|
|Fuzz on the boat in Cali|
|Kent, Fuzz & Roo|
roasting hot dogs on the beach
|Kent & I in the jail on the|
|One of my favorite pics|
of Kent and I on the beach
|Kids on a rafting adventure|
|Kent and I at Red Rocks|
|Kids being silly on the beach|
|Joelle, Me, Donna & Emily|
|Brandon being cool in his car|
|Me and Trace!|
|Going to the Rockies|
Watching my kids heading off to Homecoming--they both looked amazing!
Going to Canvas and Cocktails with my sister, Joelle. I love the way I'm SO not an artist, but they make me appear to be one! Now both Bran and Roo have an original painting by their mother hanging up in their rooms. (and I love that they hang them...)
|Mom, Me & Dad at their|
|Me and Kent at their party|
The opening of IKEA! Yay! Love this place! (although my bank account does not...)
|Air Force One--pretty cool, huh?|
|Off to camp!|
|My baby girl|
Watching Brandon not make the soccer team this year--first time ever. Another hard moment, but he handled it well.
|Fuzz working away|
|My baby Gates|
|Kent in the hot tub|
|One of my favorite pics that I took of Kent in Vail|
|Mom and me at the RFTC|
|Amanda & Riss|
Trying to golf with Kent--yeah, I suck. Although I rock the crap out of my golfing outfit--complete with pink clubs (if only I could properly use them...)
|Me and the parentals at the Packer Bar!|
Having a student teacher for the first time. Ummm. Yeah. Was a roller coaster ride to say the least. Enough said.
|Fuzz & Roo finding our way|
through the maze
|Me and my babies at the Maze|
|Me, Mom & Joelle at the Electric|
Cowboy celebrating Mom's 66th
|Kent "Poncho" and I|
Buying my first items ever from Craig's List and E-bay--yeah. That was something.
Making gingerbread houses at the Lee's--a tradition that's now five years in the making!
|Kent, me, Julia, & Garrett at|
the Bull & Bush
|Bran, G-pa, G-ma, Me, Kent, & Rissa|
at the Bull & Bush
|Marissa, Bruce & Michael|
|Kent and I at Zoo Lights|
Getting the flu for 3 days--not fun. Literally the first time I've been sick in at least 10 years.
Joining a Women's Book Club--meeting some new, amazing women! I've wanted to do this for so many years and just never did. SO happy that I've jumped in and look forward to our monthly get-togethers!
Starting a public blog in November and enjoying every minute of it!
As I look at this list there are several things I've left off, one in particular. I've left off the negative things--the times when my kids were making me absolutely insane and I wondered if I'd even make it to 2012. I've left off the times I was aggravated beyond all hope or I felt as though there were too many weights impending on my shoulders. Why focus on the negative?
My list is quite long--even as I look at it, knowing all the fun times and hard times that aren't on there, I can't believe all the things I've done this year--especially all the firsts. But not one of those things define my year. See, I look at 2011 as the year of forgiveness. It was a long time coming. I made a promise to my daughter at the beginning of 2011. It took me exactly one month to fulfill my promise. I promised her I would make amends with her step-mom and her dad. I've known for a long time that forgiveness was in order. But I became accustomed to anger, to hatred, toward them. It was perhaps how I coped even. I know why I was angry--but after awhile even that doesn't make all that much sense anymore. I realized that I was holding onto my resentment because it was easier to do than to forgive. And I will admit that it was not only the best thing that I did this year, but also the hardest.
We were at one of Brandon's soccer games and it was cold and rainy outside. Marissa was with her dad that weekend and I could see them all sitting there in the rain cheering Brandon on. Kent and I were lucky enough to get a spot for the car right in front of the field. I sat there, watching my son play, not even knowing I was going to make good on my promise to my daughter that day. I saw Marissa, Taylor (Marissa's step-sister), and her step-mom heading toward the bathroom. I looked at Kent and said, "I'm going to talk to her." He looked over at me with shocked expression on his face. "Okay," he replied back. I could feel his eyes in the back of my head as I headed in the threesome's direction. I wanted my daughter to see that if you make a promise, if you want a change, then you do it--even if it's the most difficult thing imaginable.
|Marissa at her "Family Birthday" dinner--look at the glow!|
So at midnight tonight, when we're in the living room watching the ball drop, I'll be doing what I always do. My eyes will water, my kids and husband won't understand why, and I'll hum along to the song Aude Lang Syne. It's what I do. I'll be saying good-bye to another year--an eventful year to say the least. And good-byes always make me misty...